Sunday, May 22, 2011


Who would ever thought birthday semua dekat dekat, haih melampau everyday kena wish orang but today i was the one that is being wished :D Hihihihi Im 19. So far being 19 is fun plus you only turn 19 sekali je so might as well enjoy it rather than sobbing over some lunatic. Going out and in of the house is a routine lah untuk semua remaja remaja di luar sana tambahan pula ni season cuti kan? Life is short people so be happy but ingat the Creator okay dont go waste your time sobbing over some shit. But jangan gembira sangat lah orang kata jangan happy sangat kejap lagi kang menangis i always find that happen but semua kebetulan kan? So macam mana ni kejap suruh gembira tapi tak pulak. Okay tak nak confuse kan korang dah. Yes there are time where we can be happy and there are time we will have to sob life is about balancing things i guess, Im still learning the way how to live in this world that will end one day so im not an expert of apa. But, to me lah kan in order to learn is by being independent you cant expect people will always be there for you when you are in trouble.Yes, i know true friend stay with you forever no matter what. Sometime you need to handle thing by yourself, depending on others will not get you anywhere it will only led you to NOT discovering who are you really are? You need to learn how to live on your own jangan nak manja sangat lah there are time where you can and there are time yang you need to think by yourself. Its hard but thats life lah kan? You might think is hard being independent yes indeed it is no one ever said it was easy kan? But again life is hard. Cuba bayangkan lah kan if you bergantung kat orang sangat macam mana you nak hidup when they all have their own way of life their own choices of life takkan mu nak ikut jugak kan? You must have something that you, yourself desire kan? So maybe you akan cakap no they will not leave me yadadadada but you will see one day everyone have their own path of life and you have yours jugak so macam mana ni? Hari pun makin malam jadinya saya hendak bersiap dulu dah give it a thought and let me know what you think aite,

Selamat my friends :D

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Read this, and you'll understand

To you out there especially My beautiful erna,
Get over him. He's not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yeah you loved him, I know that. And I know you just can't see yourself with anyone other than him, I get that. I've been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah your gonna see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, cause straight up; its gonna hurt. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows your watching. He knows its killing you; that;s why he will do it. Don't let him get to you because that, well that's exactly what he wants. Don't give him what he wants. He doesn't even deserve it. So what if he doesn't talk to you; do you honestly wanna be friends with an asshole like him anyways? Thing is I know you still do. But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, do you really wanna hear that? No. Screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry. Trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who's not him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you; the girl of his dreams. He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you. When he decide he just did no love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. And don't you sit there thinking he won't be sorry I know you are. But I guarantee you now; He will be sorry. So don't go on spending you nights waiting for that one phone call you know your never gonna get. Or that IM you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. He like to pretend he does not see you online, he does it out of spite just because he knows its killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he will do that cause he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I'm not gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It'll hurt a lot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. Its all gonna hurt. Knowing your not the girl that's making him smile. Knowing your not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing your not the face on his background of his phone anymore. Knowing id he hasn't already he will delete the album of picture of you he has on his phone. Knowing you wont be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there's not gonna be no more late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what, today, tomorrow, next week, months from now; your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping its him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me; hes got to much pride. Even if he wanted to be back with you, he wouldn't tell you. Your soon gonna realize he doesn't care about you anymore and he wont be the first person you call when your upset. He wont be the one to put that smile back on your face. And yeah its gonna hurt; its gonna hurt a lot. But you know what you gonna do? Your gonna hold your head up. Your gonna show him your better than him and you don't need him in your life. Your gonna prove to him that he made the biggest mistake of his life letting you go and that you never really needed him anyways.